I won’t kid you. These last three months have been an uphill battle and it seems like I and so many others have been knocked down repeatedly lately. You probably have too. This morning, I almost threw my hands up and quit. I got to the point where it was easier not to even care. I thought, “Screw it! Whatever happens, happens! I don’t care anymore!”
Yes! Me! An up-lifter to bullied people everywhere, wanted to give up! A person who is, for the most part, a positive and upbeat person and who is not known for quitting.
I’m no superwoman. I’m human and times have been tough- overwhelming at times. That’s all I can say, so, I’ll spare you the details.
The truth is, I began to question the reality of free will. I started wonder if “Free Will” is real or just an illusion mankind has lulled themselves into believing. I’m not sure if I know the answer. But what I do know is that we do have control over our thoughts and sometimes, even the most positive and confident people get drug through life so much that, yes, even they began to doubt their own autonomy and control over their own lives.
Like I did today, when times are at their worst, we all will sometimes slip into that horrible abyss of negativity. It happens to the best of us.
I’m a strong person, yes. But being a human being, there are times when even I’m not that strong. The truth is that I’m crawling right now, but…BUT!
I’m not dead yet and I don’t intend to quit. I’ll only rest and take the time needed to take care of myself and my family.
I don’t know when this down-period will end. What I do know is that I have to trust the process- to trust that no matter what happens, it’s going to be alright.
With that said, there will be times when you feel like you can’t go on. If you don’t have the strength to walk, then crawl if you must. But never lie down!
Wishing you all love, peace, happiness, and prosperity.