Acknowledging My Own Humanness and Frailty

I won’t kid you. These last three months have been an uphill battle and it seems like I and so many others have been knocked down repeatedly lately. You probably have too. This morning, I almost threw my hands up and quit. I got to the point where it was easier not to even care. I thought, “Screw it! Whatever happens, happens! I don’t care anymore!”

Yes! Me! An up-lifter to bullied people everywhere, wanted to give up! A person who is, for the most part, a positive and upbeat person and who is not known for quitting.

I’m no superwoman. I’m human and times have been tough- overwhelming at times. That’s all I can say, so, I’ll spare you the details.

The truth is, I began to question the reality of free will. I started wonder if “Free Will” is real or just an illusion mankind has lulled themselves into believing. I’m not sure if I know the answer. But what I do know is that we do have control over our thoughts and sometimes, even the most positive and confident people get drug through life so much that, yes, even they began to doubt their own autonomy and control over their own lives.

Like I did today, when times are at their worst, we all will sometimes slip into that horrible abyss of negativity. It happens to the best of us.

I’m a strong person, yes. But being a human being, there are times when even I’m not that strong. The truth is that I’m crawling right now, but…BUT!

I’m not dead yet and I don’t intend to quit.  I’ll only rest and take the time needed to take care of myself and my family.

I don’t know when this down-period will end. What I do know is that I have to trust the process- to trust that no matter what happens, it’s going to be alright.

With that said, there will be times when you feel like you can’t go on. If you don’t have the strength to walk, then crawl if you must. But never lie down!

Wishing you all love, peace, happiness, and prosperity.

22 thoughts on “Acknowledging My Own Humanness and Frailty

  1. You are a beautiful soul who has helped so many. I saw a quote recently that says true queens fix each others’ crowns 🙂 You seem to be that personified in your fight against bullies. Take care of yourself. You deserve it. It’s beautiful to be human and to acknowledge that we are human. This post is important for all to see that. Thank you for the work you do. Thank you for showing everyone that even a lioness needs her rest. You are an inspiration

  2. I think you’re right that free will is at least partly an illusion in some respects. I sometimes feel my life is controlled by unseen puppet masters who know when my stars are aligned and I’m enjoying life too much, so they knock me down a peg or two, be it health, money or time. Don’t hide too long, it’s better to face the challenges as they come, than let them build and overwhelm you. Best wishes.

  3. Wow! What an inspiring and uplifting post this is. I am going to share this with my buddy who is lately going through tough times. I am hoping that reading this will ease her thought of giving up.

    Thank you dear Cherie for sharing this with us. Much love 💕💕

  4. On Inaguration Day it was raining here. Our dog needed to go outside but was hesitant so I walked with him. As he did his business, his body language looked miserable and he hunkered down in the rain.
    After he finished he walked slowly over to me under a shed. I thought “Mr. Beefy feels like I do–depressed.

    Suddemly, with all the might he could muster, he SHOOK THE WET OFF. Of course, much of it splashed on me.

    He was so relieved and looked royally proud. I laughed and petted him for about a minute or so. A sudden break in the rain allowed us to safely walk back to the house.

    I thanked God for the moment. As Beefy just did, I shook it off and was determined to have a better day.

    The thing is, a series of things occurred (burnt hand taking a 24 lb turkey out of oven, spilled turkey juice and gel over stove, oven and floor, later hurt my shoulder, etc.) that challenged my spirit.

    Guess what?

    I won. My spirit is good.

    (I think I’ll make this into a blog article).

    • This is a beautiful story! Our fur babies are smarter than people give them credit for. They know something is up and they know our moods. Definitely make this into a blog post. God bless you, Texas!

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